Lost and found

Blinded. By the demands of society,

I became confused by who I had tried to be.

I admit I was lost for a while,

fighting against myself, but now I need to reconcile.

 

I found it hard to live up to others expectations,

choices I’d made, situations I’d created,

that I knew just weren’t me,

but when you’re lost you act with uncertainty,

I guess it’s cause you’re unsure of who you are,

so you just trial and error till you go too far…

 

And that’s when you start to reflect on your journey,

from where to started to where you aim to be,

and you realise the mistakes you made along the way,

I think that’s where I crumbled, I let those mistakes stay.

 

I held them close to me, so close they peirced my skin,

and managed to eat away at my soul from within.

Regret? I was filled with it, I’d hang my head in shame,

thinking of all the things I did or didn’t do and who to blame.

 

And society? They’ve taught me so much,

with judging eyes and whispering mouths, outstretched hands trying to touch,

me… As if they know me. As if they bothered to hear my story.

But yet you’ll see them, sit and talk and preach,

about what’s right and wrong as if they’re qualified to teach.

Pretending to be perfect as they throw words that make you weak,

and I’ve been watching quietly, but now I’m ready to speak.

 

Blinded. By the demands of society,

I became confused by who I had tried to be,

I admit I was lost for a while,

fighting against myself, but now I need to reconcile.

 

I’ve made mistakes and been scared that youu will judge me,

but you have no right to judge just because you sin differently.

But now I’m confident with who I am and where I stand, I’m not afraid to fall,

as I’ve learnt that breaking down is as important as standing tall

Written in 2013 ©

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